Tomorrow should be my final day in Covid-19 isolation. According to the app I can go back into the wild (a national lockdown restricted one) at 23:59 on 19th November.
Today we received confirmation that my husband has Covid-19.
The guidance is not clear, so we can only assume I have to start isolation all over again.
The children definitely can’t go back to school on Monday. This has been confirmed by the school. Nearly 2 more weeks of home schooling for them.
I found this all out after quite a difficult home-schooling session.
I cried.
Full on snotty tears.
I cried because I am tired.
I cried because I have a banging headache.
I cried because I worry about my husband.
I cried because I worry about my children.
I cried because my Mum also has Covid… and that is not good news.
I cried because my children are stuck at home for another 2 weeks.
I cried because my 6-year-old just wants to go back to school.
I cried because I am not a patient teacher.
I cried because my house is untidy, but I have no energy to give it a deep clean.
I cried because I look like I need a clean.
I cried because I have to cancel guests for the radio show.
I cried because I have to cancel appointments which means others losing money.
I cried because I hate letting people down.
I cried because I just want to go for a long walk.
I cried because it means we will inconvenience our family members for another two weeks.
I cried because the wine fridge is empty.
I cried because I needed to.
I cried because it allows me to release frustrations.
I cried because it clears the brain fog.
I cried.
I cried and it made me feel better.
Crying is such an important tool in My Wellness Toolbox.
As I finished crying and put this tool away, a number of events happened within a thirty-minute window.
💫 Someone I have never met before contacted me on LinkedIn to ask if they can promote Your Christmas Wellness Toolbox giftbox – they had seen them on my website and would like to include them in a wellbeing guide for Christmas. Wow.
💫 A few of the school Mums messaged me offering to run errands for us. Surrounded by kindness.
💫 A local lady who I have only met via the power of social media dropped a gift at the door, a beautiful soy candle with a lovely Thank You note. I have agreed to give my feedback. Her timing was perfect.
💫 My hero of a Brother-In-Law delivered bread, milk and WINE. His timing was perfect.
💫 My husband came downstairs and excitedly announced that now he has Covid surely we can hug again. Put a huge smile on my face
💫 My 6YO made a gorgeous card for me to make me smile.
… and that made me cry again!!! Good tears. Happy Tears. I know how lucky I am tears.
On the difficult days there is always something positive to find. Always. Sometimes they shine brightly and smack you in the face within a 30 minute window, sometimes you have to look a little harder, but they will be there.
…and don’t forget to use the Crying tool. It is good for you. Crying can make you feel better.
…and I have just found out This is Us is on TV this evening, which probably means I’ll be crying again before the day ends!!
Have a lovely evening... and please stay safe xxx